First thing: don't start commenting on how my blog schedule is off. It's my blog and I can whatever the hell I want with it. I'm having a rough patch right now. Here's the list:
- I am in a posse for my friend Anna Lee for her demo release and 17th birthday and I have start learning all this stuff for July
- I have exams in less than a week and if that doesn't say anything the next one will
- The day after exams, I have an audition for All-State (a music thing) that i don't wanna do. Thank Mom.
- I am starting to learn dances for my recital in June. The costumes are crazy. When I get pics I will post, because the jazz on is seizurastic
- I have a piano recital the day before an exam I have to study for. Really? REALLY?
- And finally, I am trying to decide whether I wanna get over Ryan or stay hopelessly in love with him
I have liked Ryan since the end of 7th grade, just 4 months after my psycho ex-boyfriend stalked me and almost got arrested. In 8th grade from September to November I was very badly depressed and he was the first one to find out because of an argument on Facebook messages that resulted me in missing 4 language arts classes to talk to our hippie guidance counselor. Then December to February he was nice to me, because I play D.N.D. weekly and hung out with his best friends since we were all friends. March....I don't remember much of March other than doing a musical called 13 with Grace. April, I asked him to dance with me at a dance on my birthday, because he never comes to dances. I asked him and he said no. I joked that I would go home and cry. He said he didn't care. It stabbed my heart and let it bleed for days. Then, a week after, we were playing wall ball and I got nailed with a tennis ball. While I cried and was being checked by Tia for injuries, he was asking out a girl in our class! In front of me! He looked at me when he finished the sentence and smiled. It didn't last long though, she broke up with him 2 weeks later. So May to July was boring, not a lot of contact. August, he got a phone. We texted from 10 at night to 1 am. Made. My. Life. And then school came back around and he ignored me. Until I slept over at Noah's house where I got to sleep with my head on his shins. I wouldn't have to much of a problem getting over him if we didn't have a history and because we are all friend with the same people.
So life. KNOCK IT OFF WITH THE ROCKS OF PAIN AND DEPRESSION ALREADY!
QUOTE:
"For anyone who thinks sunshine is pure happiness, has never danced in the rain"
OBSESSION:
Happy Drink: Hot Cocoa+French Vanilla Coffee Creamer+Whipped Cream+Milk= happy tummy :)
SONGS:
Rock Your Soul-Elisa
Footloose-Footloose Cast 1984
Sleazy-Ke$ha
INSPIRATOR:
Adele- people call her fat, but she just says "I make music for ears, not eyes", which is a great thing for a girl who is a size 11/13. LOVE YOU Adele!
Wish Me Luck!-E
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